It's true! I didn't just eat a large burrito. There's actually a person growing inside my belly! That all-consuming secret I was keeping? As you may have guessed... this is it. And Hal and I are over the moon! Actually, that's an understatement. We are over the sun!
I waited a bit longer than most to reveal the news. But finally feeling confident enough to say - this little bean is here to stay. Strong healthy heartbeat? Check. Positive genetic test results? Check. Super cute ultrasound photos showing proof of a real life human being? Check!
If you've been following my blog for the past few years, you'll know this is my third pregnancy. After three long years of trying, two false starts and a daunting infertility diagnosis, there was a point where Hal and I had that difficult conversation about needing to be okay with just us - a family of two. But I had trouble visualizing that future. I just knew our baby was coming. **
Both miscarriages broke our hearts into a thousand little pieces. But I'm forever grateful for those experiences and it wasn't until I reached a place of acceptance, that we were able to conceive this little one. I wasn't ready to be a mother then. But I am now. I feel like an entirely new person. And the capacity of love in my heart has grown tenfold for this sweet soul who, like myself, needed a bit more time to get ready for the new and exciting adventure that lies ahead.
October 15th - it's happening. And I hope you'll stick around to witness all my hormonal tears, fears and joys. I promise I won't turn this space into a "mommy blog". But as a lifestyle blogger who already reveals the inner workings of her world, pregnancy may be a difficult subject to avoid. This baby is already demanding most of my attention - I can't imagine not sharing these beautiful moments with you all.
Mama friends, bring on the advice! I'm all ears. And all belly before ya know it!
** To those of you still struggling to start a family, to the brave women who reached out to me in solace, to my dear friends who yearn to have a child - I pray my story gives you hope. I continue to welcome your emails, your heartache, your woes. And I continue to hold your hand, until you let go, to hold a baby of your own.